Thursday, March 26, 2009

By popular demand...

It seems like you folks hate Bill Keane's work as much as I do. Let's do this:



Papa Keane learns that karma is a bitch as his years of sexually harassing Mama Keane to get what he wants come back to haunt him.





Ironically, Jeffy needs his mother's help in order to remember his preferred method of summoning her.







Dolly is a contrary whore.





Billy is a contrary whore.






Apparently PJ is behind on his quota.






While he won't outgrow hugs, Jeffy knows that days when he'll be able to feel up his mother with impunity are short lived. Also, the detail on those undies is unnerving.






Okay, the Keane children just have a terrifying relationship with their mother.






...I...just...I don't want to know.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Little Miss Sunshine

I'm watching Little Miss Sunshine right now and remembering why it's one of my favorite movies. I mean, certainly, there's the wonderful soundtrack by DeVotchKa and Mychael Danna; the inventive cinematography; and the dry, dark humor. These things are enough to make most people I know enjoy the film. For me, though, there's a deeper element to it. There's a subtext to the story being told that I identify with in a way I do few other films.

Watching all of these characters fall apart in their desperate attempts to control their own lives brings me a perverse happiness. This is because I know that they will come to the realization that they are broken beyond their ability to repair themselves. I know that, in time, they will learn that it is only by letting go of their personal agendas and loving one another even at the cost of their own pride that they will find purpose and contentedness. I know that they will learn from Olive's example. The message here is an attack on the standards of what it means to be successful not only in the eyes of society, but in the eyes of the self.

I know a couple of people who read this blog who haven't seen the movie, so I won't build up a case for my argument. Those of you who have seen the movie and don't know where I'm getting this from, go and watch it again and we can talk about it.

Monday, February 23, 2009

More graded writings:

Just wrote this narrative for English. We were supposed to tell a story about a time when we felt out of place in ~800 words. I struggled with that limitation in multiple ways, as you may notice (there wasn't any time to effectively introduce anybody else in a relevant way and the ending wraps things up a bit more than I had any desire to); and it's not my best story telling ever...but it works, and I'm satisfied enough with it for the time being.

Anyway, here's the story:

As I got out of the car, I got my first real exposure to the Okinawan summer. By the end of the day, Chris would come up with the most apt metaphor possible for the weather here: it was a mouth. At the moment, though, I didn't have time to worry about the heat and the smothering humidity; we were running late. Shigemitsu and I dashed from his mother's car across the grounds and into the school. We paused briefly inside to change into our school shoes and darted down the hallway. Shige slowed for a moment to direct my attention to the room where my compatriots and I would be starting our day and our month-long career at Okinawa Shogaku High School before hurtling up the seven flights of stairs to his homeroom, striving to beat the chime that signaled the start of the school day.

Slightly red faced and still breathing hard, I approached the room Shige had pointed out only to find the lights off and the door locked. My stomach lurched in exactly the manner it had when it expelled the overripe sashimi I had eaten with breakfast not an hour before. I suddenly became aware of the fact that I didn't understand a word of the language being spoken around me. Students who were less concerned with tardiness than my host brother were meandering the halls, some of them patronizing the school store, others just avoiding class. From their whispering and hand motions, the most obvious conclusion to my addled brain was that they were talking about me. And why not? Between my pale complexion and my lack of a school uniform, I was the most visible part of the landscape. I may as well have been a tree in the middle of the Nebraska prairie. Some of the younger students started to form a mob several feet away from me. In days to come I would learn that they likely just wanted to introduce themselves to practice their English; but at the moment, I could only assume that they were preparing to swarm and eject me from this place where I clearly didn't belong.

In a desperate attempt to avoid this grim fate, I decided to check the nearby rooms. The only direction Shige had given me was a point in this general direction. I easily could have picked out the wrong room from that hasty gesture. The light was on in the room next door. I walked past, craning my neck as I went, desperately hoping to see Chris or Dominick or Tucker or Janet, praying with all my heart that there would be some proof that this was where I was supposed to be. I had no such luck. Every chair I could see housed an unfamiliar face. I considered knocking on the door and asking for assistance, but I didn't want the first impression these administrators had of me to be that of a stereotypical, brash, self-important American. I doubted it had been much over a minute since Shige and I parted ways, and the chime still hadn't sounded. I had time.

As I glanced around searching for other nearby occupied meeting rooms I saw Tucker round the corner and finally felt some relief – a relief which was quickly dispelled as he closed in and I saw the lost look in his eyes. He was obviously working to control his breathing, which I chose to assume meant he, too, had been running behind schedule and not that he was trying to contain a frustration born of fruitless search for our seemingly mythical meeting place. I explained that I didn't know where we were supposed to be, either, and Tucker resolved to ask for help. He puffed up his chest and began his approach to the door where I had seen the meeting taking place. If they were administrators, he reasoned, they would certainly know who we were and where we were meant to be. In his mind, we were VIPs – for the day, at least. Edelweiss began to sound over the P.A. System and Tucker turned the knob and pushed open the door.

Miracle of miracles, it was the right room after all. We were greeted with great enthusiasm and the day from that point is a mere blur. We were taken out to lunch with the vice principal and were given uniforms and schedules to use for the next four weeks. We met the students in our homeroom, whose names none of us would remember the next morning. After the school day was over, I returned home and exchanged gifts with my host family, collapsing into a deep sleep before 10 o'clock. Subsequent days would be just as exhausting, but the month I spent in that house and at that school would prove to be among the most valuable of my life.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

*shrug*

So, for the last couple of weeks, one of my roommates has been telling me at regular intervals how hard I am to peg. Now, this roommate seems like he's generally a pretty good judge of character, so this has me a bit confused. I may not always fit into standard archetypes, but I feel like I'm not that terribly hard to get if you're willing to think outside the box for even a minute.

So, here's my question to you loyal few whenever you get around to reading this: is he right? Am I less transparent than I tend to assume?

One of the chief things that I strive towards that I don't see much in society at large is that I generally try to be pretty honest and upfront about who I am and where my motivations lie, so if I'm doing a shit job of this, I need to know how I can do better. Maybe I seem a bit inconsistent or even hypocritical in some surface behaviors, but I hope that the reasoning there, too, should be clear.

No need to reply where everyone can see if you don't want, but talk to me about this if you feel so moved. I can take it. I swear.

Also, read the post before this one (chronologically). I need some critical feedback on my real writing. I can take that, too.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Censorship and Moral Development

So, I just finished a paper for a Philosophy class, and I'm actually fairly content with it. I thought that people might be interested in seeing what happens when I take some time in my writing (and proof read). As always, thoughts (including disagreements) are warmly welcomed.

[begin actual paper]

What is the nature of censorship? When most people hear the word, they likely think of governmental regulations on the flow of potentially offensive materials into the public sphere. Censorship of this sort is incredibly controversial, but it is only one example of a much broader concept. Active censoring bodies exist in smaller scales in all parts of life. For example, parents wisely filter the materials their children have access to. Meanwhile social groups in all walks of life condemn certain behaviors or materials, providing a passive filter of dissuasion. Our legal and penal systems could also be understood as passive censorship. However, we must be careful to understand that not all censorship is external. After all,any time we act to manipulate our surroundings and remove certain influences, we are truly censoring our own environments.

So, what is the purpose of this sort of self-censorship? How is it related to censorship of the first sort? Fundamentally, this second form of censorship, the individual censorship, seems as though it is an active rejection of those things which influence us in ways we find undesirable – those things which lead us towards becoming people other than the people we feel we ought to be. We censor our environments in hopes of developing the sorts of characteristics – including moral characters – we feel are appropriate. In a very real way, the various forms of external censorship would seem to serve the same purpose. By actively or passively censoring our environments, others attempt to prevent us from developing traits that they would consider undesirable. This notion is clearly understood in The Republic, where Plato advocates censorship to an extreme extent in the education of his Guardians and Rulers. They are to be told no stories that would lead them to believe that there is lasting value in injustice so that they will not be tempted by it or value it themselves. They are only to listen to music that embodies the spirit and manners of courageous and just individuals so that their souls will be stirred only in that direction. In this way, they will develop a just character, and just actions will logically flow from that. My question, though, is this: Can individuals who have been coerced externally into being people characterized by seemingly moral behaviors really be said to be moral individuals? I, for one, am not certain that they can, and I will explain why I hold this opinion in the arguments that follow.

First of all, we must make an attempt to say what morality is, or at least what it means for an individual to be moral. We have said that living a life of morality is simply “living the sort of life creatures like us were meant to live”. I like this definition. It's slippery and makes it hard to declare definitively what is or is not moral, which I think is important in discussing something that deals with value systems and, as such, is inherently controversial. I also believe it to be a good definition because, as Christians, we believe that there is a certain sort of life that we, as children of God, are meant to live. We are meant to live the sorts of lives that God intends for us. So, it can be said that a moral person is one who lives the sort of life intended by God.

Once we know what it means for an individual to be moral, we need to investigate what it means for an action to be moral. We discussed two ways of describing which actions were moral and came to the conclusion that “act-based” morality – the belief that the moral standing of an action belongs to the action itself – was the inferior ideology. On the other hand, we came to a general consensus that what we called “agent-based” morality – which says an act is moral because it flows directly from a morally virtuous character – was a generally superior understanding of morality in regards to actions or behaviors. However, so long as we are taking the will of God into account when describing what it means for a person to be moral; I think we can come to a better description of what it takes for an act to be moral by taking God into account here, as well. I think that we need to describe morality in regards to behaviors as those behaviors that are characterized as being most in line with God's plan for creation. This may seem like I am pulling hairs. In particular, it would seem that a morally virtuous person (particularly by our definition) should have goals in line with God's plan; but by continuously aligning morality with the will of God, we can create and improved sense of direct connectedness between morality at different levels.

Among the chief benefits of removing morality entirely from individuals is that we can eliminate many of the dangers of relativism. There is obviously room for disagreement as to what God's intentions for creation are specifically, but I think that revelation is clear enough that, if we limit ourselves to broad terms, we should be able to reach consensus. As such, let us assert that God desires that all of creation should flourish and be redeemed to what it was before the fall. I will also make the additional claim that it is God's intention for this restoration to be brought about by agents of creation, namely humanity, and that they choose to participate in it freely.

This leads me to my chief argument that a moral character formed entirely, or even primarily, by external pressures cannot be said to be a true morality. If we want to abide by God's intentions as stated, then we must actively choose morality for ourselves. This doesn't seem to be possible if we are never truly presented with the option to choose its opposite. In order to illustrate this point more clearly, I will revisit an anecdote that we used in class.

Suppose we have two men. Both have celebrated many years of faithful marriage, never committing any acts of infidelity towards their wives. The first man is continuously tempted towards infidelity, but holds places of honor in his community that would be gravely jeopardized were he to engage in such lurid acts and be caught. So he resists his immoral tendencies in order to preserve his good standing. The second man merely never considers the act. In class, we used this story to characterize the superiority of agent-based versus act-based morality. There was a unanimous agreement at the time that the second man, in his freedom even from temptation, was the morally superior individual. Yet, I believe that this could be debated depending on what we define as the cause of this freedom from temptation.

Suppose, for a moment, that the second man has somehow been made entirely unaware that adultery is even an option. Suppose that, somehow, his environment has been affected in some extreme way so that he doesn't even know that there is potential for immorality and sin in the intimate company of every woman he encounters. Can he then really be said to be freely choosing to enact God's will for creation? If he doesn't know that there is a choice to be made, I, for one, would argue that he can't. As such, while I would agree that this man may be morally superior to the man who avoids sin entirely out of love for himself, I still don't think that he is a properly moral individual. Ultimately, I think that there is something to be said for the first man and his actual confrontation with temptation.

Before I can describe how the second man can exhibit true morality, I think that we first need to nail down a single definition of temptation. In particular, I see a need to differentiate between a knowledge of the potential for immoral behavior in a given situation and the actual desire to engage in the behavior. Let us call the first of these temptation and the second enticement. In order for the second man to be truly moral, he needs to know the temptation of extramarital relations. He needs to be aware of the ways he could potentially derive benefit from immorality without being remotely enticed by it. There must be no effort in his resistance of immorality even if he could avoid all personal consequences, for his aim cannot be to benefit only himself but all of creation.

How is it possible for a person to know the fruits of sin, though, if it is entirely against his disposition to embrace it when confronted? It may seem somewhat radical, but my next claim is that true moral character, for human beings at least, does not need to arise from purity, but will more often be the fruit of penitence. It is not merely enough to be told that something is bad and to be avoided. We are called not to avoid immorality, but to reject it outright. We must recognize why it is an aberration against creation as God intends it. We must hate immorality as God hates it. With the possible exception of instances of extreme evil, this takes experience. We may experience the sin as a victim or a practitioner; we may experience it directly or indirectly; but we need to see the ruin that immorality brings to creation in order to properly denounce it. To make sure that my implication is not confused, let me directly state that I am not claiming that it is sufficient to have experienced a sin in order to despise it. I do claim that in order to properly despise a sin, it is necessary to have some personal experience with it.

Complaints could certainly be leveraged against this claim. Notably, it would seem that we should never condone participation in immorality, even if it leads to a genuine love of morality. Similarly, most would argue that we should never wish the pain of victimization on anybody. I find it difficult to disagree with either of these claims, but we live in a world where escaping sin's grasp is not a possibility, and I will always maintain that it is more important to learn from our failures and the pain around us than to obsess over never failing and turn our eyes from the ugliness that pervades the world. I feel that the lives of the Saints provide ample evidence in my favor.

My final claim also relates to the importance of experience. Creation is immense, and we are called to experience it – to know the beauty and the ugliness present in it. In the article we read by Bloom, he expressed concern with regards to the development of individuals who grew up finding their soul's delight in works created by blatantly immoral individuals. While I recognize the danger here, I would say that, given the state of the world, it is not entirely undesirable. It is incredibly important that we recognize that good works can come from seemingly less than good people. This is an inherent part of grace, and learning how to differentiate between the artistic and redemptive qualities of an action or a product and the moral character of its perpetrator or creator is an essential part of living in this world as a true Christian. We cannot simply reject that which is created by immoral people as being inherently unworthy of our admiration and still claim to have respect for the intrinsic goodness of God's creation.

At this point, I should recognize the value of censorship in various forms. I think that active censorship, such as that practiced by parents and even governmental organizations, is necessary to a point. While it is important that we struggle with the reality of sin and evil once we are mature enough to do so, there is no reason not to prevent undeveloped, impressionable minds from encountering evils they are not yet ready to understand within the greater concept of our mission. I am simply arguing that not allowing a person to hear certain words or view certain acts does nothing to help them understand why they are destructive. If we control our environments too strongly, we run the risk of preventing these developing individuals we are trying to protect form developing the righteous indignation towards immorality that is required to truly work to end it. Worse yet, we can keep them ignorant of the very existence of immorality in their midst.

Similarly, I believe that passive censorship in the form of legal penalties or social consequences also plays an important role in society. We are creatures of community, and the attitudes of our peers rightly ought to influence the way we change and grow to fit the microcosm of the world we help to define. Similarly, not everybody can be counted on to develop a truly morally virtuous character; sometimes we need to merely encourage behavior that is generally in line with that of a moral individual. However, we can cross borders here, as well. By too actively trying to push people away from certain behaviors or influences, we can prevent them from understanding why the influence is wrong. Moreover, we run the risk of failing to engage in parts of creation, which allows us to miss some of it's God given beauty and/or leave our work of restoration incomplete.

Ultimately, though, I believe that the problem with extreme censorship in terms of moral development is that it encourages the formation of an act-based view of morality. If we allow others to form our environment and our perceptions of reality. we may develop a character that consistently chooses the morally “correct” option, but we will understand our actions as being moral because they follow certain patterns. If we don't understand the purpose of our behaviors relative to at least a vague notion of God's will (either directly inspired by a recognition of God's status as our benevolent creator or simply through the blessing of grace), then can we truly be said to have the character of a moral individual? I don't believe that we can. As I have stated in places already, I believe that a moral character needs to arise from a sober and personal understanding of sin's impact on creation. A perfect moral character shares in God's hatred of sin and evil and works not to avoid it because it is wrong, but to eradicate it because it is unnatural. Passion requires experiential knowledge, and this, fundamentally, is what censorship denies us.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

I still hate Bill Keane

You should all know what's coming. Let's get started.



Billy thinks that women don't deserve an education.


If anybody can explain this one in a way that doesn't involve Dolly getting measurements for the internet porn site she's starting, please, for the love of all that is holy, clue me in.


Billy will one day use an anatomically correct doll to explain this comment to a jury.


Mrs. Keith foolishly thought that the Keane children would forget about their claim to her first-born.



Over the course of his life, Jeffy will utter this sentence innumerable times, replacing the word "spoon" with the names of anybody he ever thought loved him. They didn't.


Dad is trying to teach Dolly the only skills he feels she will ever need.
or
Dolly makes her blatant disregard for even basic cleanliness known.


The poor deluded bastard...

Friday, October 3, 2008

Everyone's a Little Bit Horny (Sometimes)

Most of the people who read this should recognize that title as an obvious rip-off from Avenue Q's "Everyone's a Little Bit Racist". The reason I love that song isn't because it's especially funny, but because it's entirely true. We all do make judgments and decisions based on things, like race, that we don't want to admit factor into our decision making process. The problem with this is that, when we don't acknowledge all of the aspects of our reasoning, we become blind to our own biases and incapable of accurately assessing our choices. Our sexuality (by which I mean our nature as physical, sexual beings, not sexual orientation) is something that has an incredibly impact on the decisions we make, but we tend to do a pretty terrible job of being healthy about it.

I'm going to go off on a tangent for a moment, but It will relate.

We're a society obsessed with self-stimulation, and this exhibits itself in a large part of the population through masturbation. Moreover, pornography is everywhere in our society; and virtually every adult male alive has intentionally sampled pornography at least once. I obviously don't discount myself from this group. I'm not trying to defend pornography. In fact, I'm doing just the opposite. Pornography distorts the intended nature of sex, ignoring the importance of intimacy and instead focusing on individual pleasure and achievement, frequently at the expense of the other member in some way. But that doesn't change the universality of the experience of pornography, and the fact that it isn't something we address openly and bluntly only gives it more power over our development.

The way we talk about pornography in different microcosms of society is a really good indicator of how we let our sexuality interact with our decision making process. In groups where pornography and/or masturbation habits are openly discussed without shame, most of the people I know are also more willing to admit to the impacts of sexual desire on their decision making...but the sexual desires are also generally greeted too enthusiastically, and sex is pursued as something good simply for the pleasure it brings. Instead of a focus on sexual health, there's a focus on "safety" in the active pursuit of sex.

On the other hand, you have groups where pornography is still taboo. They recognize the flaws with pornography, but because they are secretly aware of the universal nature of the pornographic experience, in an effort to dissuade it, they've become puritanical and any talk of sexual urges is associated with the pornographic rather than the expression of natural, healthy desires; so it is shunned and unhealthy attitudes towards sex fester. Here, instead of trying to develop a healthy understanding of sex, the focus is one of abstinence from this unseemly act.

Obviously, the unnatural nature in which sex is represented in pornography is the uniting factor in what's wrong with both of these approaches...but somewhere along the line, our entire understanding of sex, on both sides of the aisle, began to conform with the reality postured by pornography and not the nature of sex as created. As such, its becoming increasingly difficult to talk about sex in an open and constructive manner that actually relates to what sex is meant to be.

I wish I had something useful or new to say about where to go from here. I see no virtue in puritanism. As I inferred earlier, I see this as being largely responsible for losing sight of the one thing of value that those who rejected pornography had - an understanding of the real value of sex. I think that we need to work to rediscover this as a society, which will involve addressing the failings of pornography in a non-condescending fashion. From there, I think we need to be comfortable talking about and recognizing our urges as not unhealthy, but not to be dwelt on.

...there's a lot more I wish I could express, but I don't have the words right now. Maybe its better this way. If I want this to be a dialogue, then I can't have all of the answers up-front. Hopefully this is enough to get some sort of response from those of you who read it, and we can figure out what needs to be done together and start trying to reform where we can...It's a tricky issue, but an important one, especially when it comes to mending the secular-religious rift (I'm not certain, but I bet I could blame the attitudes of condemnation towards sex for most of my friends leaving the Church)...

thanks for your time, and hopefully this made sense